Emotional Courage

 Ya! This is going to be fun! Growth is good! Each of us (yes including me) has the opportunity to take a peek inside ourselves, choose to identify thought patterns, and deal with them head on before they become habits! Fun huh!?! I went to sleep without peace in my heart and mind. We are doing extensive training right now through  Bring The Family Together, specifially the "91 Days to a New Family Environment" parenting series. Much of what is taught runs through my heart and head. As a result that is indeed what I heard inside my heart as I tried to sleep. It sounded like this, "you need to go to sleep in relative peace." I quickly heard myself answer back, "relative to what?" and sure enough the response was, "relative to Jesus!" See, I went to bed sad and lonely for conversation with my husband about real life. Communication that is more than "hi how was your day, nice weather we're having huh?" etc etc. Also from the training, "most of you do not know how to have real communication". So I asked myself, "what is real life communication?" Unfortunately not until the next morning, nonetheless, here is what I came to understand. I want to share and also hear about how God extended love to my husband, how the opportunity to choose joy despite circumstances that would merit otherwise, what action took place towards faith (being sure of what you hope for and certain of what is not seen), who was the person that came into our pathway to be lavish in relation to compassion, and how did courage take place in our day today. So the elements of REAL life vs just happenings are (see "91 Days to a New Family Environment")...love, faith joy,courage, compassion. Again here is the kicker, every fiber of my soul wanted to come to Dom complaining that we do not have meaningful conversation, but the fact is, neither have I come to him to share real life! What an eye opener this has been for me! So the courage that took place to me today was emotional courage. Because what my soul wanted was to "go off". What my spirit knew to do was run to the Father and dive into the Word this morning. Not for study per se, but just one verse of confirmation. After spilling my heart out in my journal I opened the Word, seemingly random, it opened to Job 5:24b "You will take stock of your property and find NOTHING missing" including emotional peace and meaningful communication!